This morning in my quiet time, I was reading in the book of Psalms and this verse really stuck out for me:
“I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done.” Psalm 143:5
It has been on my heart lately to share with you a story of the greatness of God. Of His mighty power, planning, and goodness. I’ll be honest, there were times in the middle of the story where it didn’t feel very good. In fact, it involved one of the lowest times in my life. But through the almighty grace of my Heavenly Father, I can now look back at the “days of long ago” and see His hand in the story every single step of the way. I can see all the dots in the story and how God connected them to make a beautiful masterpiece of His love.
Many of you know about our experience as foster parents, and that throughout that process we had many highs and lows. If you weren’t with me back then, you can read some of my foster parenting blog posts here. The lowest low of all was when we had to surrender a precious baby boy that we had been led to believe we would get to adopt. Looking back it seems like we should have known differently based on our timeline. God placed that precious baby with us just 10 months before we would be moving out of state with the Army. But, I was hopeful and trusting. I figured if God wanted us to adopt him, things would move fast. Well, they didn’t. Because that wasn’t God’s plan all along.
It turns out that while we were caring for “Little Bear” as we called him, another family was taking classes to become foster parents. They had no children of their own and wanted to help other children and grow their family through adoption. They got certified as foster parents just in time for Little Bear to go to their home just as we were getting ready to move and had to find him a new family. Coincidence? No way! That, my friends, is our Father’s perfect timing. His ways are higher than our ways.
Now he is with this wonderful family being loved on, cared for, and CHERISHED every single day. He knows what it’s like to have family and friends. He is learning of God’s love and one day he will be able to grasp how deep the Father’s love is for him as he gets to look back and see how God had a plan for him before he was even born.
How do I know all of this? Because a dream came true! One of my disappointments when we had to surrender our foster son was that we would not be able to see him again or know how he was doing. I desperately wanted to be able to talk to the new family, but CPS would not allow it. It was heartbreaking to say the least, but I already wrote about that in another post.
But God is GOOD! He is amazing, really. And just about a month ago, by the grace of God and the wonders of technology – Little Bear’s mom…the one who adopted him and now can call him her own….contacted me via Facebook. She had been wanting to contact me for a while but wasn’t sure I’d want to hear from her. I definitely did!
I was so thankful! I knew I would never find her. I knew her first name because of conversations I had with the birth mom right after he left us (even then I would have never spelled it correctly!), but I didn’t know her last name or where they lived. I had sent a letter with Little Bear to the adoptive parents that included a DVD full of pictures and some information I thought would be helpful for them to know. I included my contact information in case they had any questions at all. Unfortunately, the CPS worker tore off my contact info before giving them the letter. At least they got the pictures! Once the adoption was final, the parents got to see his full foster care report and our names were in there. As a side note – that information shouldn’t have been in there and our personal info should have been kept private for safety reasons. In this case, I’m glad it was in there.
Now I’ve been able to connect with the woman who has given Little Bear a forever mommy & a daddy. I’ve been able to see pictures of him and how he’s grown! He looks so happy and is obviously very well loved and cared for. And just now, the story has come full circle as this family just accepted their first foster placement since bringing their son into their home. Now they have a couple more kids to love on for as long as God has planned.
What a blessing that is from God, and one I don’t take lightly, that He has let me see clearly HIS hand in HIS story as a reminder that He is always there – He will never leave us or forsake us. We just have to trust Him.
God knew all along that this family would adopt Little Bear. But they weren’t ready when he was born, so God used our family to give him love in the meantime. In the end, we may not have gotten to adopt him, but our family was blessed by him & this story in a way that will never be forgotten.